Dear Pre-Mom Me,
Today, you excitedly dressed up your baby bump in a maxi dress with a strategically placed belt, proud to show off that growing belly. Your Google history is full of searches about the latest and greatest baby gear, all of the pregnancy questions, and your heart is already so full of love for the tiny baby growing inside of you. If you’re being honest with yourself, you think you’re going to rock this motherhood gig. You’ve read the books, you helped out with your little sister, and you are a teacher, after all. But, dear pre-mom me, I’m just here to tell you from one year in the future that you really have no idea what is to come…
Nothing can prepare you for the first moment when your son is placed on your chest. The way his tiny fingers wrap around your necklace, he might as well have wrapped them around your heart. He made you a mama, and nothing will ever be the same.
Nothing can prepare you for the utter exhaustion you will feel. You will be more tired than you can fathom, but you will still get up to nurse and bounce, nurse and bounce, nurse and bounce, because he made you a mama and you are stronger than you know.
Nothing can prepare you for the first time he looks at you with recognition and smiles. Your heart will ache in the best way possible because you are his mama, and he knows it.
Nothing can prepare you for the uncertainly that you will feel. You may have read all the books, you may think you have all the answers, but nothing can prepare you for the weighty responsibility of being his provider and the desperate desire to not mess everything up. Soon enough you will learn to trust your instincts, because you have them, you are a mama.
Nothing can prepare you for the mixed emotions you will feel as your little one starts to grow. He will meet new milestones and you will smile and clap and celebrate, and you will also cry and snuggle him tighter because you’re his mama and the days pass so quickly.
So, dear pre-mom me, just know that all the books and all the gear and all the sleep cannot possibly prepare you for what’s to come. You will love in a way that you don’t quite understand. Most importantly, know that you’re going to be okay, you’re going to do just fine. You’re his mama, just like you were meant to be.